What a day we had today. We went to book club this morning. We came home and later went to Target. Yipee. Greg dropped us off and I had more than an hour alone there. Now that may not sound like a big deal to you. When I cannot drive, then everywhere I go someone is with me. To Target it would be my husband. It was fun to go and take my time. I did a lot of browsing, practicing skills with Emma, and did purchase some Christmas Gifts.
The trip to Target was also humbling. This sequence of events reminds me to count my blessings and not complain. Greg dropped us off and there were no electric carts available. If I had driven myself I would probably left and gone home. Two very helpful employee's tried to see if they could find one. I learned they only have four for that great big new super Target in Maple Grove. That is not enough. Trying to figure out what to do I got a water and a pretzel and sat down in the eating area. I watched like a hawk looking for prey to see if anyone went by with an electric cart they were done with. Both employees said they would come and find me when one was available.
We waited and waited. We practiced getting the cane, and getting the leash. Emma was doing just great. We chatted a bit with a man there who also had a cane. He told me of the times he drops his cane and how he could use a helper like Emma.
Finally we got up and I thought, since I had not exercised on the stationary bike today that I would get a regular cart and walk a little bit with Emma. My legs were spasaming and hurt but I found I could walk. My legs often feel heavy like they are made of cement so walking is very difficult. Well inside of me I was complaining about the situation but off we went.
I was distracted by the browsing and found I walked further than I thought I could. I was near the back of the store when I met a lady using an electric cart. We almost bumped into each other. She admired my dog. She and I talked about how they need more electric carts in this store. She had oxygen on through her nose. She explained both breathing and walking are very difficult for her. She seemed very nice.
I thought to myself about my own attitude. I gave myself a talking to --buck up and shut up. I hadn't complained out loud to her or anything. I thought you can walk this far today so be glad. As it happened I went back to the front of the store and there was an electric cart available. Yeah I could go back and finish shopping and browsing.
then while shopping I met a friend from church. She has moved but it was so great to chat with her. We talked a long time and by then Greg joined us as he came to pick me up.
So at Target I met a nice man with a cane, the woman on the scooter, and an old friend. I also realized once again to be patient - do the best I can with what opportunities come my way. How silly I was to feel sorry for myself that there was not a cart right away.
It was getting busy so we left. It was supper time. I do plan to see if a manager can tell me where to write to explain my concern that we need more electric carts in the store. In a polite manner of course. But when one is not available I will wait patiently or walk what distance I can. There might be someone (like the woman I met) who needs it more urgently than I do.
While at Target we also had fun with some of the individuals who met the dog. Since I wanted to focus on practicing skills we met a few children and she practiced sitting and letting them shake her paw. There were a few tight aisles where women wanted to move so we had the entire width. In two instances I explained could you please stay where you are but ignore the dog. I want her to practice walking in a tight area without stopping to smell things or greet you. I am happy to report both the women and Emma did great in this exercise. Though one woman said it was so tough not to be able to pet her.
When I am out with Emma - especially on a scooter sales staff are always asking if I need help. Becky kids me that she needs a dog and scooter when she shops so someone will help her. Emma wins a lot of praise - both for her appearance, her mannerism (calm) and her skills. She got a good workout today. Once on a scooter I zipped here and there in the store. When we met our church friend and chatted so long - Emma was just thrilled to lay on the floor to wait. Diane complemented her on her patience. I agree she is patient but she also was tired I think. like me I think she would rather be moving than standing and waiting.
I am so thrilled that I have some Christmas presents to wrap tonight. If I am too tired I will do them tomorrow or Wed. There is no rush. I just want to wrap as I go so I can enjoy wrapping and think of the person for whom the gift is intended. Does it surprise you that most of what I have is for my granddaughters? Fun fun fun looking at toys, clothes and picking out items for them.
My adult children are a different matter. This year it seems difficult to know what to get them and finances are very tight right now. I do love picking things out for them. I know they will appreciate whatever gifts they receive but I am really troubled that I can't spend more on each individual. I know the true meaning of Christmas is about sharing love and time together....but still this something I am struggling with. My kids will all handle it fine
Mike, Tia, Anna, Danny, Becky, and Justin are super awesome. I just love them so much and would so like to purchase big gifts for them. The other aspect of this is I try to be there for them if they need help financially during the year, and if we do family things together. But they will be fine - I just have to make peace with accepting what I can and cannot afford this year. It was easier when Anna, Michael, Becky, and Danny were small. Greg was an expert bargain hunter. It also was easier to find little things and good deals on toys that would delight them.
Oh no. That sounds like I am complaining. I guess the better term is I am "adjusting". Adjusting to medical bills, and the changes in my life. The greatest present for all of us is to be together. For that, I am grateful. All of my children live in town. I think we will see them all on Christmas. I sure hope so. I need to remember the religious meaning of Christmas and the warmth of holiday celebrations.. .remember to keep my priorities straight
So I am off to put my feet up and relax. Hug my dog and then wrap some presents.
Wishing you a wonderful holiday season.
Mary and Emma
My First Christmas With Emma - 2005
